Amazing Inward Quest of Self-Discovery

Jun 6, 2025 | L's

I recently completed L12.

It was VERY… Freeing. Restorative. Awakening. Awe-inspiring. Adventurous. Powerful. …And to those words, add any and all similar words that one would use to describe the experience of an amazing inward quest of self-discovery, undertaken to find out who one truly is. It was simple -even though, at times, it did take a bit of very rewarding confronting.

Contrary to what I initially “thought”,for me, L 12 was not getting more ‘gear’ or ‘stuff’ or ‘magical wizard powers’ or ‘additions to me’ to make one a bigger, stronger, more able being. It was not an ‘additive process’ per se. It was more along the lines of the removal of ‘things’ that were Not me. It was a gradual stripping away of things that I was not. The removal of things I picked up, or stuff that was ‘given’ to me along a very long journey. Stuff that I had forgotten about and stuff that was an unknown burden upon me.

The ‘things’ and ‘stuff’ above, being more specific, meaning roles and characters that I was playing or being in life: Knowingly or unknowingly. Willingly or unwillingly. Which, when ‘removed’, did actually make me more ME than I can recall in quite a long while.

So, to make all that above vagueness more reality-based, an analogy here:

Imagine starting out on a long journey, a hike perhaps. You start out with just you and a backpack. An idea of just wanting to wander about, explore and heck, just have a good old adventure with a bit of fun and excitement.

Along your way you see an interesting thing -a stone- and put it in your backpack. Why? Only because you found it interesting and think it might be a nice keepsake or reminder of where you had been, for later on. Further along you find another and pop it in your backpack. Then another and then something else. And, every once in a while you meet and join up with a stranger, and he gives you stones or tidbits or stuff that you stick in your backpack again, as a keepsake -even if you didn’t actually necessarily want it.

Later on, more stuff and other strangers. etc.

Well, eventually your backpack gets pretty darn full. Lots of stuff that tends to slow you down a bit and make the journey a tad more sluggish. You do get tired a bit more quickly and things seem to get more efforty. But hey, you’re on this journey!

You get used to it and you just trudge along your way still mostly enjoying your journey -but sometimes, ehh, not so much. Yet still -almost automatically now- you’re still picking up more and more things, for not really any certain reasons, but just because it’s become a habit.

One day you’re resting on a rock, backpack by yourside, pretty tired and feeling sort of blah. A new stranger comes by, stops, says hello and says “WOW! That’s a pretty hefty backpack. Whatcha got in there?” You look up at him in a bit of a daze and say “Oh lots of stuff. Not sure exactly. Mostly stones I think”.

Conversation ensues and suddenly, You wonder and then ask yourself, “Hmm, what exactly do I have in here?”

You open the backpack, look inside it and start taking stuff out. Stones; some pebbles; a few bottle caps; gum wrappers; a really big jagged rock, a broken watch etc. And strangely enough, you don’t even remember where or why you collected some of this stuff.

Long story short, you look at these objects and begin to realize you don’t need them, nor do you actually want them. They seem to be a bit useless now and have become a burden. So you toss them. When you later pick up the backpack, you notice it feels lighter. Like, way lighter. Feels good.

Then realizations follow, and you are quite happy about these realizations and you are once again, newly, very interested in your journey and have a refreshing new attitude about it and are suddenly more energized,etc, etc, etc. -especially because you have somehow realized that your enthusiasm for your journey had noticeably dropped over time, but NOW it’s way back up and you’re sort of getting excited to continue -as you were when you originally started! “WOW!!!” you think.

You feel more like YOU again because all that stuff that you had collected and were given, is now gone. You also realize that all that stuff you thought you needed to remind you of where you were, was never -or at the least now- necessary. As a matter of fact, you, as I did, may also realize that you don’t even need the backpack! This is quite a relieving feeling. Whew! Freedom!

And with that, your journey continues and magical things may or may not happen but, it doesn’t really matter because you now know that you have the one and most important thing you could ever truly have on such a journey -you have yourself -as you purely and truly are -with really no need for anything else.

So, this is my simple analogy of my win from L12.

But, if I still didn’t communicate it well enough, let me just say this: IT WAS FRICKING AMAZING TO RE-BECOME ME!… without having to add anything to me, to become ME.

(Insert Big Happy Face icon here !)

One last note: There was that ‘new stranger’ above. Well, there’s a tiny bit more to that: there were actually 2 ‘new strangers’. LRH was the stranger I never met, but his magical work and wisdom was conveyed to the stranger I did meet -via the question that LRH posed. The stranger who directly asked me the question “Whatcha got in there?” That was the amazing Mr. Trey.

So to both LRH and to Trey. THANK YOU SIRS! … for noticing and for asking.

Sincerely and Gratefully, Myron

Not Nearly as Mysterious

Jun 6, 2025 | L's

L-11 Success Story

I reached a point in my auditing with Trey where I figured I was ready to start on my training for Solo NOTs. Trey suggested that I might want to do L 11 first. I was not all that excited about that idea, but I do trust Trey, so I said OK.

L-11 was quite fun at first, but then it got better. Towards the end, Trey asked me some questions that blew my mind. At first, al I could do was laugh. But then I found out that I knew the answers. What fun that was!

I ended up knowing that life was not nearly as mysterious as I had thought. And I am quite certain that my life will be much better than it has been.

Love,

P

All the Havingness I Needed

Jun 6, 2025 | L's

My Auditing on L-11

A whole lot of “make it go right” – or “OT ability” – got me here to Los Angeles to audit L-11 with Trey Lotz. His auditing is superb, and the rundown is phenomenal.

Grade IV is Prerequisite to the Ls

One of things I should point out is “set-ups.” I am one very set-up arrival, and because I did my bridge the thorough way, I am sailing through some very powerful auditing with ease.

The new arrival set-ups were tremendous. A full, thorough rudiments with good sense handlings that were spot-on. I handled any lingering vestiges of suppression and any new stuff, that had not been blown away by the “3 S&Ds” action of January 2024 that had kept me sailing for a whole year not needing any more auditing at all.

First Action of L-11

The first major action was C/S Series 37R. How can I describe what it did? It was like no other auditing on the bridge, and with its own special technology. We audited rises on any of the nine flows given – all possible flows in the universe are there. I had astounding wins, and we usually could only get through one or two, before I had a persistent F/N and he would wisely end the session.
Can you imagine, doing just one list – get your item inside of about 15 minutes, and you say, “I’ve had enough auditing for today.” Havingness? We haven’t run any – it comes along with the tremendous gains of 37R.

So far this has renewed my ability to pursue new things and explore different patterns (I don’t feel like a “cleared cannibal” anymore), and now I find the willingness to try, to do, to create, new things – (even at my age late in life!) – has come back. In some areas and in some ways that haven’t been opened up in lifetimes!

It has rehabilitated previously unknown purposes that I won’t have time to pursue for lifetimes. But the havingness and the future is there, with no rush to get there. Present time is full and quite satisfactory.

Having studied the phenomenon of Evil very deeply over a long time, I find that this rundown zeroes in on all that in ones own case, and that’s what I’ve been working on since completing 37R to F/Ning list. It’s so nice, now, to have the case state that goes with the cognitions! Those “cognitions” had gone beyond my ability to “have” them, and I would have to sort of reach and withdraw on them in order to keep going at all on that research line. It was breathtaking. Now I can have it, think with it, and will gladly communicate it to others.

I can’t quite put into words what awaits whose who do a thorough job on their bridge, get honest and straight, and confront Evil all the way up all the Dynamics.

Evil is what takes away the game, the fun, the laughter and even something of the raw survival sensations of living at all, when it is permitted to go too far. This is something we all must rise above and get others through, before we can claim to relax our efforts and ride on into eternity.

Auditing must be made popular in this world or this world will grind on suffering for a few more trillion.

I did enjoy taking a walk the first time I got such wins, but I didn’t even do that after doing that once. I found I had all the havingness I needed, within.

Why would I need to go out to the beach when, inside, I already feel like I am out there on it!?!

-Scott Gordonzen